just some thoughts

I wonder how one minute your life could be absolutely amazing and being going so well, then the next its like how did this happen? I am so confused and lost about what im doing with my life and where i am supposed to be. My heart hurts and there isnt anything i can do about it. I know what i have to do and i try to everyday, but for some reason something brings me back. Ive given it to God so many times. What a wonderful God I serve. He loves me no matter how many times i screw up or how ever many times I take back part of my life which should be his. He knows me inside and out. How beautiful he is. Wow. I waste my time on the littliest details about my life.
I talked to my dad today and he says that God puts frustration in your life to make you who he wants you to be, stronger and more dependent on him. I know this is true, but i still cant seem to figure how to deal with things. I just wish I could get over him alredy and move on. Thats really what is keeping me back and I know it shouldnt. Hes moved on and i should too. I just cant help still being attached. He kinda made me part of who i am today. Im thankful for the time we spent together but there comes a time where you just have to give up, let go, and let God.
I've been real confused about God's purpose for my life but the other day before exams were out, me and Lindley(twin) were driving and it all of a sudden hit me. I was meant to be in Troy to meet her. Without her i dont know how i could have survived the last year. She is always there for me and I know that is one reason and one purpose for me being at Troy. I was just recently appointed Vice President of Panhellenic at Troy which entitles me to be there for another 2 years. I was plannin on leaving Troy bc i was so unhappy but i cant now. For some reason im supposed to still be there. I dont exactly know how or what God is wanting me to do there, but i know its something. Im praying for strength, light, and ability to get through my life down there. Its really hard but if he has a purpose for me down there then im going to fulfil it and do it with his strength.

.....in another light im starting to pack for texas and its all hitting me fast. 7 weeks. i cant wait to get out of Alabama. A new surrounding, new people, and a new adventure is just what i need to get my mind off of some things.

"I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, "Go throw yourself in the sea," and it will be done. If you believe you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer." Matthew 21:21-22