God is a funny man..

This past months has had alot of downs with very few ups. So I am sitting in church Sunday and it was one of those days where I didnt want to get up or do anything. God was like nope, youre getting up and going to church. So while I was late, I was still there ha. And the message was about the purpose of God's plan for your life. Now if im not mistaken, thats what im going through right now. Not exactly sure where God has me going or what in the world my life is going to be like. Well sure enough He is laughing at me right at that moment. The choir begins to sing a song, and its nice and catches my attention. The chorus says "When you dont understand the purpose of His plan, bow your knee." Now I have been in much prayer over the month but I dont necessarily think that I have completely 100% given it all to Him and trush that when I do, things will get better. So thats one hit, then last night at chapter Lacey normally gives us a devo, but had completely forgot. So she decided to recite a verse off the top of her head randomly. It just so happend to be the one that I have been living by the past few weeks. Jeremiah 29:11. " For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." I mean come on!!! He is practically screaming at me now. So yesterday I had my share of tears as I have frequently have had, but these wernt necessarily sad tears. They were more of realization tears. He is always there for me and will always be. He isnt going to leave me when things get rough, he is going to throw me over his shoulder and carry me to safety. Thats why I love him so much. And the fact that when we dont listen and are stubborn out the wazzzou like I am, he kinda puts you in positions where you have to listen to him. He is pretty amazing :)

breaking up is hard to do..

it really does suck breaking up. its been almost 3 weeks and while I wish I could say I was over it, I would be lying. but with anything it takes time. I can say that I am better than I was a week ago. I am finally realizing that whatever happens in life happens for a reason. God has such an amazing plan for me and my life ahead of me that I shouldnt worry about the small things in life that wont seem to matter in a few years. It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.
I love music, it can cure anything. The beats of the music match the words and heal the soul. without it i really dont think i could get through anything. it makes me happy and it makes me sad. but with it, it gives me a feeling of relief at times idk why it just does. this song, for some reason i really like, its called the brilliant dance by dashboard confessional :)

So this is odd,
the painful realization that all has gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all,
and nobody cares at all.
So you buried all your lover's clothes
and burned the letters lover wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.
So this is strange,
our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
where nobody leads at all,
where nobody leads at all.
And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time?
Well this is the last time.
This is the last time.
This is the last time.

anyways.. i know sometimes it feels as if the world is going to end with the littlest things, but knowing that God has something so much more incredible planned out for my life and that it is 100000000 times more incredible than i could ever imagine gives me hope. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord." Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." That right there alows me to know that He is amazing and loves me so much. I dont have to worry anymore :) Letting go and letting GOD!!!!

sigh....

"I will never leave you nor forsake you." Hebrews 13:5

suuuuuuper rough week... need prayer... thanks..

-cadie

"For I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

"Consider it pure joy my brothers when you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of faith develops perserverance. Perserverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete not lacking in anything." James 1:2-4


You say: "It's impossible." God says: All things are possible. (Luke 18:27)





You say: "I'm too tired." God says: I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28-30)





You say: "Nobody really loves me." God says: I love you. (John 3:16 & John 13:34)



You say: "I can't go on." God says: My grace is sufficient. (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalm91:15)





You say: "I can't figure things out." God says: I will direct your steps. (Proverbs 3:5-6)





You say: "I can't do it." God says: You can do all things. (Philippians 4:13)





You say: "I'm not able." God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)





You say: "It's not worth it." God says: It will be worth it. (Romans 8:28)




You say: "I can't forgive myself." God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)





You say: "I can't manage." God says: I will supply all your needs. (Philippians 4:19)



You say: "I'm afraid." God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear. (II Timothy 1:7)




You say: "I'm always worried and frustrated." God says: Cast all your cares on ME. (I Peter 5:7)




You say: "I don't have enough faith." God says: I've given everyone a measure of faith. (Romans 12:3)





You say: "I'm not smart enough." God says: I give you wisdom. (I Corinthians 1:30)






You say: "I feel all alone." God says: I will never leave you nor forsake you. (Hebrews13:5)

gO sHaWtY.. iTS yo' BiRfDaaaY

sooo I felt like i was 4 years old again, too excited to sleep and waking up every 30minuets simply because TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY!!!!


YAY iT's MY BiRTHDAY!!!!!


- I love birthdays.. not the getting older part, but just simply the fact that its your day and you can do whatever you please.. and I, am going to do whatever I please.. why you ask?? Because its my birthday and I can!!!!!