Crazy Love..

Soo I have been reading Crazy Love by Francis Chan.. I mean whoa!! At first I was so confused as to why I was reading this and forgot about it after the first chapter. Then I picked it up again and started re-reading it. God was really speaking to me through this book. It's about this radical change and breaking out of the ordinary. This is becoming my favorite book. I wanted to share some of my favorite quotes from the book. Here are just a couple..

- "In the midst of our failed attempts at loving Jesus, His grace covers us."
- "God's definition of what matters is pretty straightforward. He measures our lives by how we love."
- "Following Christ isnt something that can be done halfheartedly or on the side. It is not a label we can display when it is useful. It must be central to everything we do and are."
- "NOTHING should concern us more than our relationship with God; it's about eternity, and nothing compares to that."
- "God wants to change us; He died so that we could change. The ansewer lies in letting him change us."
- "Having faith often means doing what others see as crazy. Something is wrong when our lives make sense to unbelievers."
quite possibly my favorite quote so far..
-" God doesnt call us to be comfortable. He calls us to trust Him so completely that we are unafraid to put ourselves in situations where we will be in trouble if He doesnt come through."
aaand the last one,
-"True faith is loving a person after he has hurt you. True love makes you stand out."

These quotes each have stuck out to me in many ways. I am so excited that God is teaching me new things and I am growing deeper and deeper in love with Him. :)

well dang.. i was reminded of blogspot.com by 2 of my favorite people.. carikates and jamiegolden. so here i am once again lol.







and i still have nothing to say. im not a very good blogger, i need to work on that. :)

Well.. my 22nd birthday is approaching way faster than I ever imagined. There are so many things I thought I would have accomplished by the time I was 22.. its soooo craazy!! On the other hand, I am totally finished with school, well besides internship and finally GRADUATION!! I just hate that I have to wait til December. dude, im so just ready to be done with everything already. But there I go wishing my life away lol.. i blinked once and Im 22 (-3 days) and Im finished with college.. crazy how life just unfolds before your eyes! we grow up so quickly!!

this is the best year to date!!!!! so many things are going well and I am so in love with my life. God has truly been blessing me day by day and showing me how awesome his love is. I am learning so much from when my focus is only on him. He is in control of my life and it has never felt better!!!

on the more personal note.. i have been subbing at high school and it is intense. ha. I love education but i am definitely more comfortable with my precious little elementary students. I cannot wait to be a teacher and have my own classroom and my own little kids to shape and mold!! ohhh so exciting!!

being true to you..

Finding yourself is a process that I find many people await. It's not as easy as looking it up in the dictionary who you are supposed to be. I find that its about going through things to get to the deeper meaning of who you truly are. Digging in ways that at times can be the most difficult,but at others the most amazing. We put ourselves through tough times to see how strong we are, we put ourselves out there to see how emotional we are, and sometimes we pass, but others we fail. We change our look hoping that it will bring us some insight to who we are, but we get lost in another translation of trying to be something we are not. We try many new things as well, new tv, new music, new friends, new places to hang. Go on road trips and visit old friends, dying and trying to figure out who we are. We go to college, move away from home and develop relationships that can cause us pain or complete happiness. What is the purpose of doing this to ourselves??? To find out who we really are? Maybe in reality we already know who we are but we dont trust ourselves to be that person that is digging down deep inside. we have pushed them down that far and dont want them to surface. maybe its time we let our guard down and just be who we are meant to be. no masks, no shame. just you.

"Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, and live along some distant day into the answer." ~Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet

life lessons..

Over my lifetime I have learned many life lessons that I will forever keep in my heart. Guard your heart, honor your parents, love one another, put others before yourself, pay your bills on time, the greatest truths in life are uncovered with simple, steady awareness, time will heal all wounds, regardless of how you feel at that moment, take lots of picture, bad things happen to good people, and the list goes on and on. Life's little lessons are a gift from God. I believe everything we do in our lives defines us and makes us who we are. We are allowed to learn from our mistakes and make choices that will forever guide our paths. Im just thankful for all of this. My life is not perfect, nor will it ever be. Ive made lots of mistakes and I will continue to make them. The best thing is to be happy with your life and live it to the fullest. You have one life, and one life only. Use it well, make memories, take time to just sit back and watch the sunset.. all of this stuff we take for granted. We are not guaranteed tomorrow.. live today as if it is your last. Love, Joy, Hope... Faith!!!


Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a futre.

What I want

I've got nothing left
I've given my best
And I know I can't do this
On my own
I'm torn between
Going after dreams
Or living with regret
Of letting go
I'm done with banging my head against the door
But can you peel me off this floor
Cuz I don't know if I can get up again
What I want may not be what I need
Have I been let down?
Or am I learning now?
To trust in what I cannot see
But I'm tired of trying to figure out what you want
And tired of always screwing up
But this is all of me
What I want may not be what I need
Just let it go…
What I want may not be what I need