breaking up is hard to do..

it really does suck breaking up. its been almost 3 weeks and while I wish I could say I was over it, I would be lying. but with anything it takes time. I can say that I am better than I was a week ago. I am finally realizing that whatever happens in life happens for a reason. God has such an amazing plan for me and my life ahead of me that I shouldnt worry about the small things in life that wont seem to matter in a few years. It’s hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.
I love music, it can cure anything. The beats of the music match the words and heal the soul. without it i really dont think i could get through anything. it makes me happy and it makes me sad. but with it, it gives me a feeling of relief at times idk why it just does. this song, for some reason i really like, its called the brilliant dance by dashboard confessional :)

So this is odd,
the painful realization that all has gone wrong.
And nobody cares at all,
and nobody cares at all.
So you buried all your lover's clothes
and burned the letters lover wrote,
but it doesn't make it any better.
Does it make it any better?
And the plaster dented from your fist
in the hall where you had your first kiss
reminds you that the memories will fade.
So this is strange,
our sidestepping has come to be a brilliant dance
where nobody leads at all,
where nobody leads at all.
And the picture frames are facing down
and the ringing from this empty sound
is deafening and keeping you from sleep.
And breathing is a foreign task
and thinking's just too much to ask
and you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights.
This is incredible.
Starving, insatiable,
yes, this is love for the first time.
Well you'd like to think that you were invincible.
Yeah, well weren't we all once before we felt loss for the first time?
Well this is the last time.
This is the last time.
This is the last time.

anyways.. i know sometimes it feels as if the world is going to end with the littlest things, but knowing that God has something so much more incredible planned out for my life and that it is 100000000 times more incredible than i could ever imagine gives me hope. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord." Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." That right there alows me to know that He is amazing and loves me so much. I dont have to worry anymore :) Letting go and letting GOD!!!!